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What The People May Say…

Posted in Inspiration with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 13, 2011 by Gideon K

As I mentioned in my last post, I’ve hardly been writing the past month besides the scribbling of ideas and fiddling around with loose verses etc and instead have been focusing on making use of the backlog of somewhat orphaned and homeless songs I’ve built up.


This morning I was thinking about a certain song of mine and how in the chorus I rhyme ‘dance’ with ‘chance’, but not the ‘Southern way’ – I phrase it so that it rhymes with ‘romance’.


This made me laugh a little to myself. Why?


It reminded me of an early experience in primary school. In North West London, people speak in a certain way, saying bath as if it was spelt ‘barth’. Both my parents are from ‘up north’ so we grew up in a house saying it without the ‘r’.


Anyway, in school somewhere around the age of 4, when reading out loud or putting my hand up to ‘ask’ a question, I spoke with a northern inflection and the WHOLE class, teacher included turned around to correct me on my phrasing and speech.


“It’s ARSK, not ASK!!”


My immediate reaction was – “No, it’s not”. Some innate part of me knew that they were all silly.


I wondered if there would be more situations like this in life.


In that moment, at age 4, I could see a gap between the place they were all coming from, and the world I saw, where one can say things however they damn well want, and all forms were acceptable.


Of course, I couldn’t have put it in to words like that then, but that seed stayed with me.


Two decades on, I’m sure you all know that these encounters never end, and if it’s not one thing it’s another.


Going back to that song, I guess I figured that

  • a) people might question or make an issue about my phrasing
  • b) It makes no difference whatsoever.


It’s the same now as it was then and always will be – people will try to correct you to make you more like them and less like yourself.


But you don’t need to take any action around it, just laugh and stay on course.


“If life has taught me anything it’s that 95% of the people are always wrong.” – Jack Nicholson, The Bucket List


The world is bigger, richer and more diverse than the school classroom.


Vive la difference.





When Everything is Wrong, Everything is (al)Right.

Posted in Creativity with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on March 6, 2011 by Gideon K

You know those nights where everything you do seems completely wrong?

I had a jam with a drummer the other night, and afterwards I was depressed and moody.

It wasn’t him or his playing – It was all to do with me and where my head was.

Firstly it was really cold playing in my shed. My fingers just weren’t responding to me very well or maybe I wasn’t giving them good instructions.

My guitar playing was stilted and creaky – half asleep. I felt at a total loss, that I’d never get round to playing properly.

My gear sounded crap – The amp, guitar, pedals. I hadn’t spent enough time playing around with sounds to find the sweet spots.

Then there were songs I was running through, ideas and riffs of mine, wondering why I didn’t have so many more to show. Why had I not finished all of those ideas I’d had? Why was I bored? What am I reaching for and not getting? Or what am I NOT reaching for?

Maybe I it was a signal that I’ve been slacking off. I have so many songs to finish, so much guitar to practice, so many other instruments to learn – so much action to take, so many things I want to do.

Anyway my negativity was not doing me or anyone any good. We soldiered through the rest of the jam and managed to have fun, but afterwards I was still gloomy.

I hate feeling bummed out. I’ve wasted too much time in my life being miserable and I don’t want to do it anymore. I have to fight it off.

I thought about it and realised I was being a fool.

I wanted hard work didn’t I? – Something that would test me. Let’s see if I’ve got the grit to see this through.

If I’m not happy now, when will I be? When I’ve ‘achieved’ something? When I’ve better gear? A band I’m happy with? When I’m ‘good enough’?

It doesn’t make sense. The only thing that matters or has any effect is what I do NOW. Each new set of circumstances comes with its own problems, trials hurdles. It’s never over. Periods of relative quiet are just space between the end of one trial and the beginning of the next.

This is a beautiful thing. I need to remember to enjoy the process… stay focused and disciplined.

There is a saying I hold dear:

“The path itself is more important than how far along it you are.”

I’m thankful for every little reminder that I still have lots to learn and for having the path ahead of me illuminated enough to keep moving.

I’m more excited now than I have been in a long time.